CIU

I’ve spent 6 years of my life with Chronic Idiopathic Demographic Urticaria (CIU) every single frickin’ day. Needless to say, people who have this condition would know what it is and why it ruins and kills the joy in our lives. It absolutely CONSUMES me. I can’t find the trigger and I also lack the courage to pull the trigger. It’s really hard to stay positive when I’m scratching my balls skin off the whole time. Not to mention those sleepless nights.

Itchy, scratch
Pain, yelp
Cold, shiver
Hot, sweat
Pissed, lash
Scared, squirm
Happy, smile
Angry, frown
Sad, cry


These are some of the most frequent occurrences and our natural response to it.

Did I mention that scratching is obscene? Especially when sensitive areas itch in public. Now what am I to do about that? Ripping my skin into shreds of dead cells everyday. Sigh.

Telling a sufferer "don't scratch" is really the simplest thing one can say without being able to accomplish it themselves. Ever had an itch that you couldn't reach to scratch it? How did you feel? Rate your frustration out of a scale of 10 and multiply it by infinity. That's exactly how we feel. And because Xyzal had started to resist and is weaning off the effectiveness on me, I started googling AGAIN and miraculously discovered this darling website:

http://wordslessspoken.com/?p=549

I must say that I am going to try the Vitamin combo method tonight. Shall update again on this. Everyone with this condition should visit this webby as by far, this is most encouraging and informative. Even if this method does not work for me, I no longer feel alone on earth with this fucking skin disease.

Tried and NOT working:

• Loratidine
• Cetrizine (Zyrtec)
• Telfast
• Antarax
• Steroid Injections (relief for 1 week)
• Boy’s Pee mixed with Charcoal Ash (Application purposes, DO NOT, i repeat, DO NOT CONSUME!!)
• Pearl Powder (Application & Consumption)
• Change of washing detergent/shower foam
• Vitamin B-12
• Heated White Rice Wine (Application)
• Seahorse Soup
• Some Chinese Herbal Soup Recipe from a friend
• Some Miracle Mixed Fruits Concentrate
• Calamine Lotion
• Dettol Powder
• ‘Snake’ Powder
• Icepacks
• Prescription Creams
& the lists goes on...

I wrote this years ago to speak about my pain of being itchyalive:

Live and let die let me be
Immerse myself in my serenity
Drown myself in a pool of blood
Watch my tears flow down in floods
Allow my sweat to drip and drop
It will dry up when I’m a corpse
Fly with me to the clouds above
Help me leave this pitiful earth
Been to heaven been to hell
Why do I still live to tell
Awaken myself from the undead
My eyes lie open when I go to bed
Drain my emotions my need to touch
My brain don’t function I don’t remember much
Freeze my heartbeat at zero degrees
Let my blood pressure speedily increase
Heat my temperature to boiling point
Crack my bones and break my joints
Clone me from a human being
Do I look pretty or simply obscene
Take my paw and slit my wrist
From this second
I cease to exist…

Parting thought: Why is Human able to develop an immunity against pain but not itch?